Starting Weight

Weight: 298.5

I did okay yesterday. 1971 calories total, although too many of them were from saturated fat and I didn't get enough protein. I want to eat between 2000 and 2200 so that I don't go overboard too quickly and then quit. I'm not going to stress about it though...right now is all about trying and seeing what works and learning what I should do. You can't reverse 23 years of terrible food decisions in two days.

I went to Target after work yesterday. I bought a scale and a bunch of better snacks to keep at work. I read weight loss blogs and sites written by normal people or health enthusiasts. I'm trying to stay away from any website created by a company.

I got my first sigh of relief this morning. When I got home last night, I weighed myself. 303 lbs. Oh my god, I have never weighed over 300 lbs. 300 lbs in that mark in my head where I'm not "a fat girl," but instead a human blimp. I know in my head that the difference betwen 298.5 and 303 lbs is not that much, but to me it was shocking. I had approximated 295 lbs, but I guess it's been a while since I was weighed. However, after reading a bunch of health articles that suggested doing you weigh-ins in the morning to avoid fluxuations from the day, I decided to give it another go. This morning, butt naked and freezing, I weighed 298.5 lbs. So that's the number I'm starting with. I'm not comfortable that I'm so close to 300 that I fluxuate over it, but I'll have to live with it until I work it off.

I really glad I decided to do this now. Working to make sure that I get healthy and lose weight will suck ass, but I'm glad that I made the decision now rather than showing up at the doctor's office and weighing 305 lbs and not realizing it until the nurse has to move over the BIG weight on the scale.