Backsliding...Sort Of

So I ate 700 calories of Lorna Doone cookies. No, scratch that. I am eating 700 calories of Lorna Doone cookies. This is a diet dilemma. For the day I've had 1305 calories. So these cookies put me at 2005 (I already put them in fitday). Now I need to eat more calories today. My goal is 2000-2100 a day to lose about 1.5 lbs a week. So, the cookies are not a good snack food. Binging on cookies is terrible. But it doesn't feel bad because technically its withing my goal range and they are like my heroin. Trans fat, bad. No fiber, no protein, bad. But I'm at my goal for fiber and protein. So I know its stupid, but right now I just don't want to eat 500 calories of broccoli and yogurt. I don't even know where I'd put all that food. But 700 calories of cookies takes up no room at all. I wish I'd eaten more throughout the day, but I haven't and now all I want is cookies.

Plan: eat and enjoy the hell out of them. Don't buy them again (or at least buy the individual packs so they're not so avaliable).

Lesson? I cannot be trusted with shortbread.

Working out has been going in two different directions. Resistance training is awesome. I love it! I'm doing it every other day for twenty minutes. I have a exercise band pilates video which is really peaceful, and there's a workout on exercise tv on demand that's a little more cardio-ish. Actual cardio has been hit or miss. Last week walking on my treadmill was fun, but I can't hear my tv over it. I'm not complaining, I got it for free on craigslist. But I can't watch tv, so I just have my iPod. Walking around the neighborhood has been really fun, but I tend to walk really slow on my own. Jumping rope was my favorite, but two 10 minute sets ended up hurting my calf, so that's on the shelf til I'm in better shape and lose more weight. I'm going to use the recommendations from Laura of Starling Fitness and walk a half mile 5 days next week.

All of these tiny problems have one thing in common: the first two weeks seemed easy. Now that there's some dilemmas and road blocks, I feel like more of a warrior charging through. This is going to be hard. The more I overcome, the more natural it will be to continue to overcome. It's been two and a half weeks, and I haven't been through a drive-thru once. Baby steps, people. Baby steps.